Thursday, October 7, 2010

I'm tired

I was at the hospital all day today, it took two tries to get my line going again. I was getting nervous that it was going to have to be replaced again. I'm getting so tired of this, I just want to be able to go to bed when I want and wake up when I want. I'm tired of my life being dictated by a machine, or I just want it to work. I was so run down after this afternoon, I didn't get home until 5pm and then I was supposed to go on again tonight just 6 hours after coming off earlier.

I had to call and just check to see if it was a big deal to not be connected. I'm a grown man that needs to ask permission if he should do a life saving treatment. I was told it was ok to not go on, I probably wouldn't have anyway. I'm just completely beet right now, and I have such a splitting head ache. Everyday I hope to get that one life changing call, and yet after a year and 6 months I am still waiting, that is all I do it seems is wait.



  1. I know I barely know you, but you are family. I wanted you to know we (Corey included) had no idea what your life has been like and we appreciate this blog for giving us that insight. Our hearts are aching for you and we will be wishing for that call every day. Big virtual *hUgS* Hang in there kid....

  2. Thanks Sarah, I appreciate it.