I'm tired

I was at the hospital all day today, it took two tries to get my line going again. I was getting nervous that it was going to have to be replaced again. I'm getting so tired of this, I just want to be able to go to bed when I want and wake up when I want. I'm tired of my life being dictated by a machine, or I just want it to work. I was so run down after this afternoon, I didn't get home until 5pm and then I was supposed to go on again tonight just 6 hours after coming off earlier.

I had to call and just check to see if it was a big deal to not be connected. I'm a grown man that needs to ask permission if he should do a life saving treatment. I was told it was ok to not go on, I probably wouldn't have anyway. I'm just completely beet right now, and I have such a splitting head ache. Everyday I hope to get that one life changing call, and yet after a year and 6 months I am still waiting, that is all I do it seems is wait.

FML

Owen