Friday, May 27, 2011

Here I am

Here I am, back at the hospital again, connected to a machine that is filtering m blood. The doctors seem pleased with results of the angioplasty, I guess that is a good thing. Turns out though they now want me to do this every 3 months. Great, yay me.


Thursday, May 26, 2011

You get used to things not working

So once again today after a while of things working ok, they didn't work again. I ended up back at the hospital today for another procedure. I needed to have an angioplasty done on my fistula. Today it was dine three times, that means a tinny balloon was inflated in my vessel 3 times. It's not the best feeling in the world, and the guide wire being inserted into the veign doesn't feel the greatest either.

But whatever, I've gotten used to things not going my way. I've come to expect the worse and if there is a better outcome then I'm hesitant to accept that it's positive until I'm sure of it. Today the procedure seems to have worked. The fistula is working again, I still need to go back to the hospital tomorrow and apparently these procedures are not always permanent. So just like many other times over the years things look like they are going to work out, but I really doubt it.

There has been countless time of this, the more recent being back in November I was called for a transplant, and then when I got there was turned away. Just one more thing. I really just don't even notice the disappointment anymore, I'm just used to it.


Back at the hospital

I'm currently sitting at the Regional Hospital in the dialysis unit because my fistula has been hurting since yesterday. Where there normally is a vibration here is nothin but a sharp paint right now. I've over heard the nurse talking and I've heard the word temporary line, this would be a central line back in my chest again. As much as I hate giving myself the needles having a line again would suck even more. I was going to go swimming I 2 weeks and if I have a line I can't do that. I guess at this point all I can do it hope that the problem with my arm is not serious and it can be fixed some how.


Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Seriously had a bad night last night

I don't think this was completely related to dialysis, but being on dialysis certainly did not help. Last night was a rough night, so rough that I had to cancel somethings that I was going to do today. It was horrible. After I was done my dialysis last night I wasn't feeling that great. My Blood pressure was a little on the low side, not terribly low but a little lower than usual and my stomach was just turning, I really had to go to the washroom and ended up going while holding my button hole after taking the 2nd needle out. So there I was sitting on the john while holding my blood in. I finished what I needed to do but stayed sitting for a bit because I was starting to feel even weaker and didn't want to stand up right away.

Eventually I stood up, cleaned up and went and laid back in bed. I still was not feeling "right" though. I was really weak, my stomach was still turning and I still felt like I had to go to the washroom. I took a couple of tums and continued to lay in bed. I decided to go back to the bathroom. I went sat down on the toilet and this is when my night turned ugly. Vomiting and Diarrhea at the same time, I ended up vomiting all over the floor in front of the toilet, it was horrible. Not only that I was also drenched in sweat, and now I was even weaker. I could barley walk, I was thinking I was going to have to go to the hospital. I was in real bad shape.

My Father, thankfully ended up cleaning up the vomit, if I even attempted too I'm sure I would have passed out in it. I got back to bed after cleaning myself up and changing my bandaids that has fallen off because I was sweating so much. About 20 minutes later I was back in the washroom doing the same thing. This time I had a bucket though, this went on for about 2-3 hours after I was off dialysis. I was in really bad shape. I guess it must have been something I ate, but it was one of the worst nights I've had on Dialysis.